A Street with a View

This was my view last Sunday. If you ever need inspiration to push yourself farther than you thought possible...look no further than Central Park South on marathon day.

I'm Sorry, I've Been Away...

Hard to believe that it's been a full 12 months since I ran the NYC marathon. A few minor things have changed since my last post on this site...let me summarize

- I had hip surgery

- I turned 30

- I quit my job

- I moved to New York

Frankly, I'm still recovering from all of those things. Living in New York is something I have always dreamed about. The transition to the city has been a surprisingly easy one--granted, if you asked me for my thoughts on August 1st when I showed up with no place to live and no long terms plans for where to sleep until my apartment was ready, I might have indicated otherwise.

Now I am settled in the Upper East Side and feeling very much at home.

One thing you may not know about NYC is that there is food literally everywhere. Sure there are fancy pants places to eat like Per Se and Daniel...but those are for special occasions...like a Tuesday...when you are paying. I have already found my favorite gyro place, favorite bagel shop, favorite diner, favorite cupcake and, of course, my favorite pizza place. The list just keeps on growing. I'm in heaven.

You'd think that all of the walking I do would offset said gyro-bagel-diner-cupcake-pizza-apoluza. You'd be mistaken.

With the lingering pain I am still dealing with in my hip and my basic desire to sleep at all times (in some future post we will discuss the wonder of working nights at a luxury hotel and the joyous effects this has on my sleeping schedule), I am teetering on the edge of disappointing myself when it comes to my weight and general fitness goals. Correction...I have fallen off the edge, but am hanging to a branch that will either break and send me plummeting or will rocket me back upwards onto stable ground--Wylie Coyote styles.

Last Sunday was the 2011 NYC marathon. I wrenched myself out of bed at noon (after 2 hours of sleep) and walked the block down to 1st Avenue. As I approached the runners I could see the participants streaming past me at earth shattering speeds. I thought "I must have looked like such a bad ass last year." It was at this point that I realized the people I was watching were on pace to finish the marathon in approximately 3 hours. Trust me...I looked nothing like those people.

After reconvening with my bed, I awoke later to cheer on "my people"...the ones who were on pace to finish the marathon in 5 hours or more. I walked down to Central Park South and set up my own personal cheering section in the middle of marathon way. Within minutes of watching those exhausted, weary, agonized souls trudging the last few pain filled steps to the finish line, I knew I wanted to do it again.

So...here we go people...it's off to the races.

This blog is going to be a little different than last time. If you recall, I wanted to start a blog to keep people posted on my training status because I was raising money for Fred's Team...the charity I ran with during the NYC marathon. I pretty much limited my blog entries to running related items...frankly, folks, I have given all there is to give when it comes to running exposition. So, no more running-only boundaries.

I also am going to focus a little bit more on my general fitness goals. Since running the New York City marathon I have gained back about 30 pounds of the 90 pounds that I lost. That is not something I am proud of. When I initially lost my weight and passed the sub-300 pound mark, I told myself that never again would I weight more than 300 pounds. Well, I failed myself in that regard and I feel like I have failed you too. When I stepped on my scale last week, it read 303. I cannot express to you the disappointment I felt at that discovery. I feel like I have let a lot of people down, but particularly, I know that I have not lived up to my own potential--which, of course, hurts the most.

This, however, will not be a pity party. Instead, it's going to be an embarrassment free forum for me to talk about all of the ridiculous things I am doing. To gloat about my successes and to air my frustrations about my set backs. I'm going to make some interesting changes and try some new stuff.

So here we go...

I Didn't Know It

As some of you might recall, I committed to write 5 posts each week for the last 3 weeks before the marathon. So far...I'm on target. What most you of don't know is that my challenge came with certain...let's call them "requirements." MK mandadated that a certain number of the entries have a twist/touching ending (a request that a sap like myself could easily oblige), while KC stated that at least one of my entries had to be in the form of a poem or a puzzle. So....it is with great pleasure I present, for your reading pleasure and cultural edification...."Ode to a Gu"

When training for a marathon one really must remember
That whether weather's hot or cold in May, June or December
Your body needs some time to heal for when it takes a beating
And no you cannot hitch a ride for that would just be cheating
Instead, be sure to bring along some little packs of power
And take them every 45 or at least one every hour
At first the taste is horrifying and makes you want to spit
The package says it's strawberry but it's more akin to sh*t
Worse than that the viscous mass'll make you lose your footing
Like chomping vaseline or styling gel or maybe instant pudding
But supress the gags and swallow hard and continue on your way
Cause in five to ten your little friend will help you through the fray
It may just be a mental kick, or perhaps a caffeinated jolt
You're legs are weak and back is tired but still you'll want to bolt
So keep a around a pack or two to help you pass the miles
They'll get you up and down the hills and through the other trials
So pack your belt and hit the trail and don't forget the GU
Just don't except these little friends to run the race without you

Preparations

So much to do!

I never realized how stressful packing for a marathon would be. There are obvious things that everyone thinks about...the running clothes you will wear for the race, the shoes, your running watch...but there is also a whole list of things that I would never think of. For example, chap stick for the frigid weather, plastic bags for the wet ground, old shoes for before the race, clothes to discard before you start running, toilet paper for...well, for what toilet paper is used for.

I have spent so much time focused on being physically, mentally and emotionally ready for this marathon, that I forget I have to pack.

There are so many contingencies to plan for...rain, no rain...cold, not so cold, warm, hot...wet ground, hard ground...and you want to be prepared for it all.

The funny thing is that the one consistent piece of advice you will receive when you are planning to run a marathon is "don't do anything on marathon day that you didn't do while you were training." Not EXACTLY sure how that is possible...I will be in New York City, taking a ferry and a bus to get to the start line, waiting for several hours outside in 40 degree weather, starting 6 hours after I normally start running, and running for a crowd numbering greater than 1 million spectators. Just a typical Sunday run.

The beauty of running is that all it takes is a pair of shoes and a piece of dirt. Apparently running a marathon requires that, plus enough stuff to fill a hang-up bag and a full sized suitcase.

Timmy

The Beginning

Since this is the last week before my marathon, I thought it would be fitting to talk a little bit about the beginning.

As all of you know, the last 2 years have been a period of pretty dramatic change in my life. On December 26, 2008, I decided that I had had enough of being overweight and out of shape and set out to change it...all of it. I'm not done yet, and I won't be done when I cross the finish line in New York, but the trajectory has changed...permanently.

On Christmas day in 2008 I woke up full of the usual Christmas excitement and anxious to get the day started. I also woke up feeling...well...bloated. Christmas is far and away my favorite time of year, and between the parties, the trips to Duncanville to see the family and the office merriment, I had eaten my way through the holiday season (like any red blooded American). As I do every day (and sometimes multiple times a day) I stepped on the scale in my bathroom when I got home that night and after a few blinks it read "354". Sadly, I wasn't overly shocked or upset by that number. It had been a long time coming. I remember very clearly the day I stepped on the scale before college and it said "299". I vowed it would never say "300", but things happen, pizzas get eaten and next thing you know...bam...you're morbidly obese.

This revelation gave me no pause as I continued to enjoy the Christmas festivities and merry-making. But the next day, I stepped on my scale again. I waited for the screen to blink its customary blinks. I waited for a number somewhere in the neighborhood of 354 to pop up. I just waited...as per usual. When I looked down again, all the scale said was "Error."

I had broken the scale.

The earth did not shake. The lights did not flicker. I just knew, at that moment, it was time for things to change.

The picture on the left was taken about 6 months before I managed to break the scale...the picture on the right was taken 2 months ago after one of our Saturday 12 mile runs).

From that day until May 2009, the only thing I changed about my lifestyle was what I ate. I did go to the gym occassionally, but I really did not "workout" in any meaningful since of the word. By mid-May I had lost 30 pounds but had hit a wall. I was seeing (and still do see) a nutritionist named Jill Lane (http://www.jilllane.com/), who I adore, and we decided that the only way through the wall was through exercise.

Enter Kristi. My wee blonde friend was already planning to run the NYC marathon in November of 2009. She was investigating running programs and had decided to sign up with Luke's Locker to train for the summer. At some point we must have discussed my need/desire to get serious with my exercise, because Kristi encouraged me to sign up for a program at Luke's called Get With It...which was designed for people "just like me" who had never run before...the program was supposed to take you from zero to a half marathon in 6 months. I remember telling Kristi that I wouldn't and couldn't run and that was final. I also remember climbing onto a treadmill with Kristi on the next machine and hearing her say "all you have to do is run for 1 minute...that's it, just 1 minute." And so I did. At the end of that minute I decided (possibly due to the pure pain and exhaustion I was no doubt feeling at that moment) that I would give it a go.

Later that night, I called MK to tell her that I had lost it. Before I could finish completing the sentence which started "I've decided to sign up for a running..." MK's response was "I'm in."

Now it's been almost 2 years. I've lost 90 pounds and about 15% body fat. I weighed 264 when I stepped on the scale this morning...which is only 40 pounds from where I want to end up. Like I said, I'm not done yet.

When I look back over the past 2 years I am struck by something that may seem odd to people who have never struggled with their weight. When I look back, I don't remember a single thing that I didn't eat. Two years ago I viewed passing up food as passing up an opportunity...I would never be able to eat that exact thing again and I had to seize the moment or regret letting it pass me by. Wasn't I taught to live life to the fullest! My happiness was contingent on what I consumed. Now it's only influenced by what I don't.

Success in life is not measured by your waist size. Perhaps more importantly, neither is failure. But I do think success is measured by little victories. So far I can count 90 little victories. And on Sunday I will count 26.2 more.

Timmy

At this moment, one week from today, I'll be crossing the start line!

One (Satur)Day More...

Apparently, I am all about the Les Miserable references today...

Tomorrow morning is the last Saturday of my training! The last Saturday I have to wake up at 4:30 and make my way to White Rock Lake. The last loop around the lake this training season. The last Friday nights of playing by the rules and eating/sleeping as directed. And perhaps most significant of all...the last trip to the Taco Joint.

It hardly seems possible that 24 weeks ago I went to the lake for my first of many runs this year. For an entire month before that, MK and I did practice runs a few times a week, just to build up to the initial 5 mile time trial. Having done the program last year with Get With It! (TM), I can tell you with no small amount of confidence that this year's program was hotter, muggier, more draining, more exhausting, and more rewarding than the regimen I endured the year before.

I am so thankful for my coaches, who offered encouragement and coolers full of refreshing beverages every single week. But I am even more grateful for Cat, Bethany, Jon, and of course, MK and KC, who fulfilled the role of faithful running buddies each and every week. Truly, having friends to pass the time and the miles makes it so much more rewarding. They keep you motivated, accountable and honest. I truly couldn't have done it without them.

I have loved this experience, and, who knows, would at least consider doing it again...maybe...but for now, I am really looking forward to having my Friday nights again!

Timmy